Monday, April 20, 2009
Hi guys, A time of Update for my Fans of the blog... Lol... Just Joking...
Last week...
went out with yuanling to Taka to get Peiying Card Materials and bought myself a Le Coq Bag at a discounted price of 50% =)
By the Water fountain in the night...
Sunday...
Went to spent time with Peiying for her Birthday gathering at K-Box with yuanling, Peixuan, Francis, Jiaming... i just realise the 2 most favourite place we like to go are 'Sentosa' and 'K-Box'... Lol... Here wishing her success in her studies =)
Sing till around 1 plus in the morning before going for supper... My all time favourite supper 'mini wok noodles'... i will always eat that during my work days in k-box few years back... Cab home, check my time-table for Monday, went to school few hours later...
saw someone there... didn't really chat with her... maybe she don't recognise me? or i have change until she cant recognise me? or? Lol... But anyway it great that she is doing well... going to University this July, i guess... All the best for her... wondering when is my turn?
Monday...
Class has change... some familiar faces has gone, new faces appears... but thank God still got Carnegie and Yujian... Lol... having 5 lectures tomorrow... from 10am to 5pm... I guess school life is still better than other kind of life... I gotta enjoy, treasure and cherish every single moments with my friends in the school...
*sometimes i am too naive to think that i can actually change a person... i been thinking about this for the past few days... and i have decided to write it in my blog after much consideration and hesitation... i have no power to change a person... only God does...
i am like all others who loves to blogs, go out etc...
i am like some others who like to write about their feelings and emotions in their blogs etc...
i am like no others, you cannot compare me to you...
i am just an ordinary person... that has their limits... once it over the limits, we don't know whether can we move on or break down? maybe i should just give up, it is more easier... time won't solve the problems... it will just procrastinate it longer... sometime we are too naive to think that our actions will make a difference... but the facts is sometime it won't... even though how much i treasure it, somethings are never meant to belong... right? i will just do my best in everything as unto the Lord and not to men...
many a time, you have not seen the actions i did... many a time, you might just take it for granted... many a time, other things are more attractive compared to mine... many a time, i forgives and accept the way you are more than the sum total of your anger...
and when i recall some of the things... it was really funny, sometime you go all out to that extreme... but actually there no need for it at all, it abit childish... sometime i find it funny too, some people are reaching out to me, but i am ignoring them while the people i am reaching out too are ignoring me... Lol
there a saying: i rather have 1 best friend that i can share my problems with than 10 friends that i won't share my problems with... so i am sure you know who you are that i will share my problems with because you are my close friends rather those i never share at all... since the day we met, are we knowing one another deeper? or just one party getting to know the other party? sometime i feels like when you need someone, i will be there... but when i need someone... who will be there? yeah... 1 to 2 of my friends that i actually share my problems with... do you know much about my me, family or school etc... are you the one i am always encouraging but you are not the one who are always encouraging me?
lastly, i think i have tried my best, if i fail, without me, sometime it wont make a difference in your life cause i know you too well... i am not always that loud, if you know me, i will keep many thing to myself... i am not like others who can easily share their problems with and be straight about their points in not just the 'cliche' topic, but more deeper stuffs... because of the background i was in, i may differ... sometime the countenance we see, the laughter we see, behind it is just the cover for the struggles we go through... sometime the length of the friendship doesn't mean anything... i am tired of reaching into your life, sometime some friends stays normal is still the best rather than progressing... now, i will just flow... to let go, stay at normal or to progress in our friendship... there need not be a burden i will be carrying...
but nevertheless after all this, i don't wish anything in return... and i finally know who are the ones i can share my problems with... because those people somehow cared... and of course i will be there when they need help, it just my thoughts... at the end of the day i know who i am and i know who i am accountable to...*
i feel better now after writting this =)
Above Posted At 6:18 PM
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