Thursday, July 26, 2007
today in the morning go to school, then around evening go to kbox for a while to visit apple cause today is her last day of work... for the past few days has been quite packed for me, everyday went to school, then on monday and tuesday night went to work... then yesterday i was late for school, in the end cannot take math test, gonna get zero for that paper cause cannot makeup for the test... just now in the afternoon also went to eat yoshinoya with my classmates, it quite tasty and cheap though... sometime just feel so tired that wanna actually take a long break... sometime there are so many things going on, everythings seem to be arranged, sometime you can't even predict your own mood, you dont know what is happening... sometime you dont know why you do the thing you do, sometime you dont know why you act the way you act, think the way you think... sometime you feel so confused, upset... sometime you feel that you dont understand yourself, sometime you live just for the sake of living, sometime you follow what others do, sometime you are influenced by others... sometime you feel so bored and lonely, no one is around by your side... sometime you feel discouraged, disappointed and dishearten... sometime you listen to the music and think of something, sometime you give up on yourself, sometime you just think you carry on living with the mandane and boring life of yours... nothing interesting and happy to look forward to... sometime you are at the corner, talking to yourself... sometime tears drop down from your misty eyes... sometime you stare at the dark sky, sometime you get so angry, sometime you blame yourself, sometime tears accompany you day and night, sometime words cannot express what you wanted to say, sometime you stood there without uttering a word... sometime how you wish tales with happy ending will happen to you, sometime how you wish you can live out the life you always wanted to have, sometime your heart feel so heavy and burdened, sometime you look at a mirror and saw a reflection of yourself, sometime how you wish time will stop where you want it to stop, sometime how you wish you can be as successful... sometime you look at the sunset, observing how beautiful it is, sometime rarely you see a rainbow, sometime you like being alone, sometime the best cure is to scream and then relax... sometime...sometime you like rainy days, with dark thick clouds hovering the sky, with thunder clashes raging furiously, with wind like typhoon swirling passes empty streets, with heavy rain that sound like needles dropping on the floor, as moments of ignorance passes, you saw the angry storm is getting more and more strong, sitted along at the edge in a in-house balcony with window glass next to you, peering into the window plane and into the sky, birds are escaping for shelters, owners of the flat are withdrawing their clothes, shutting down their window, grandparents are bringing their grandchildren home from the playground, people are starting to use their umbrella... somehow you feel so relax and calm, knowing you are safe in-door, emotions and feelings starting to invoke into your spirit... it noon time but yet the sky looks frightening and scary, wondering of somethings that are always in your heart, waiting for the key to unlock and reveal what you always wanted to know, the room is getting colder and darker, no one at home, everywhere seems to be so quiet, it a sunday... staring and peering into the open sky, minutes starting to tick, tick, tick, tick, tick... ...
Above Posted At 7:13 PM
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