Monday, July 30, 2007
quite sad though... dont know why also, why would people like to make a big fuss especially when it is not the right time... everything use to be perfect, but it doesn't seem now... still remember we have load of fun, but that in the past, it cant be now... why everything seems to be againt my will and ways... i am so hot now... feel like screaming out to the ocean... feel like punching and kicking againt a punching bag... is it me, or you, or what? how i wish sometime i am not being seen, everytime i see, a sense of jealousy, sadness and anger arose in my heart... i wanna let it go, but it seem hard... the moments i remember is so nostalgic, cannot be forgotten, in the end i am hurt, i keep to myself... is it i am too nice, or is it my character really bad... everytime you run towards, trying to invoke into my brain, why will you be so heartless to do such things... i already let go... why would you still come making me remember what i dont wanna remember, i know you are having a good time, everythings may seems perfect for you, with whatever you need, i dont need sympathy, even though i dont have, i may be sad, even though that in the past, would you kindly give me a break? even though i long for it, there always be a mark there, cannot be erased... even though i really long for it, but i dont have that much courage to face it, i dont want the pity that other gave, overall did you all know about that, nope i guess, what can i do, just let it pass, i am not that easy as others think, i am truly broken... without me, there will not be a start, without me, there will not be a stop too, see from far, it seem like my creation, i guess this creation is a boon to me...just installing the 3d studio max onto my laptop but they say cannot be operate... huh, only window 2000 and xp then can... then my laptop is vista, cannot operate, i wasted like nearly an hour installing it, and it is very important, cause i need to do my project using it...gonna sleep now, tomorrow still got school
Above Posted At 12:49 AM
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